Just Read and Understand Me

You never know who I am stymied with you but I try to hide... Because I Love You So Much..... ><
I also had promised not want to lose you... I LOVE YOU... You also want proof that I really love you.. How? I can not afford to go to Kedah if I wanted to prove that I am willing to find you in this corner of the world ( memang gler la jawabnye kan, sampai kalau tersesat kat sana )... Understand, I was this girl,.. I can't and are not able to do it all... Tunggu pas kahwin la senang ><""""

For 4 days I was with you... What we do? 2 days in the 4 days >< ( belum cukup lagi ker? >< ) 
Belum cukup lagi untuk buat b percaya??? Sampainye hatikan... ><""" Other people do not feel all that.. Understand?!
When I was PLKN, is there anything that should be suspicious... ( syg cuma penat jer and tak sangka pun akan buatkan b curiga kat syg >< ) when it's like that, I apologize for my mistake.. Saya pun cuma manusia biasa jer tak sedar kesilapan yg di buat... Cakap tu memang senang, dalam hati siapa tahu? dengan masalah keluarga lagi time tu... Memang best la kan >< Dari luaran jer nampak kasar, dalam tak ada siapa pun yang tau.. tu pun syg cuba spend time jgk ngn b bler dpt hp... Faham lah, da bnyk kali ckp kn, masa terhad... Dlm kem tu mcm2 kena buat, nk kena kemas bilik pe smua mse tu, and mse tu jgk dpt hp.. Ibu ayh pun xsempat nk contact.. Ibu lg la, dgn mslh dia lg pun xsempat nk tanya macam mana... Orang tengok semua tak ada ape pun jadi, tapi hakikatnye, dalam hati tu macam2 perasaan rasa, and terbuku semua ketulan2 darah kat dalam hati tu... BISA yg makan hati tu... Menangisnya hati syg time tu tak dapat bersama ibu.. Bukan sesuka hati jer kalau b nak cakap syg abaikan b.... Syg pun xnk la benda ni semua jadi ! Betapa tak tenangnye hati syg bila b xpercayakan syg, seolah2 mcm MAYAT HIDUP jer keadaan syg ni... 

p/s : tak terniat pun dalam hati nak sedihkan b.. tp ketahuilah, hati syg lagi kecewa n sedih saat tu.. please, understand me :'( pengalaman masa kt PLKN tu pun buat2 jer happy, tp dlm reaksi muka yg sebenar tersimpan seribu kepedihan dalam hati n kesedihan kat muka ni.. Sesak da dada ni... Hm, Take Care